Testing my Faith

Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. - James 1:2-4

Our little family is going through a real test of our faith right now.  My youngest daughter is having brain surgery in a couple of weeks for intractable seizures, and this desert period is really teaching both me and my husband some very valuable lessons about our faith and what we believe.  
You see, it's very easy to say "Yes there is a God" when things are going great and life is just peachy.
But when we are faced with trials and the decision to fully offer our trust to Him, well, that's not so easy.  Our "logical" thinking wants to quickly put our trust in what is seen to our eye, like the doctors, or equipment, or medicine.  I am learning that we have to have these trials in order to define our faith and test our allegiance to the Most High. 
I am also learning that I am somewhat of a control freak.  I spend many hours reading and researching on my daughter's condition, the medicines and their side effects, the different surgeries, who's the best of the best doctor and hospital, etc.  God keeps reminding me that He is in control and I just need to keep my hands out of His handy work.  When I finally surrender control to Him, I receive a great peace about the whole situation.  My sweet girl is going to be just fine, and is going to bounce back 110% percent.  In the meantime, I have got to let Him use her to bless others and touch other people's lives, even if that means undergoing brain surgery.  For we know that in all things God works for good for those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.  - Romans 8:28