Falling in love

Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength.

Deuteronomy 6:5

Obviously, my blog hasn't been my number one priority in life, even when I try to convince myself I can make it a priority. So I'm not promising myself a once a week or even once a month blog, I'm just gonna write when I feel like God is pressing on my heart about something. Even if that's only once every 6 months.

I'm struggling a lot lately with keeping God at the forefront of everything I do. Being in the world, but not of the world. I'm so easily distracted, with an addictive and obsessive personality that often eats away at my soul. Things that often pull me away from the right focus are volleyball, worldly "needs" (I say that loosely because my "needs" aren't often true needs, but selfish desires that I convince myself to believe they are necessary), and just the daily hustle and bustle of being a mom and wife. I heard the song "More Like Falling in Love" by Jason Gray this morning and really focused on the words. My relationship with God and Christ hasn't been that of falling in love with them, but rather of allegiance, as Gray puts it. I've given my allegiance to God, but haven't been seeking out his love. I've had glimmers of hope over the past year, but my focus gets quickly distracted by all the worldly things I think are necessary for happiness. I've got to stop giving those things credit for making me happy and just surrender to His love.

An awesome friend of mine told me today, "you know, if you give all these [things] completely to God, He will handle them His way AND you'll be a whole lot less stressed". Prophetic words I need to digest and act upon indeed. Surrendering your life and problems to God is the only way to relieve yourself of any stress in this life. It's also the way to find His love, and in turn, fall in love with Him daily.

Maybe that's where I will start.

_________________________________________

"More like falling in love" - Jason Gray

Give me rules, I will break them
Show me lines, I will cross them
I need more than a truth to believe
I need a truth that lives, moves, and breathes
To sweep me off my feet

Its gotta be
More like falling in love
Than something to believe in
More like losing my heart
Than giving my allegiance
Caught up, called out
Come take a look at me now
Its like I'm falling, Ohhhh
Its like I'm falling in love

Give me words, I'll misuse them
Obligations, I'll missplace them
Cuz all religion ever made of me
Was just a sinner with a stone tied to my feet
It never set me free

Its gotta be
More like falling in love
Than something to believe in
More like losing my heart
Than giving my allegiance
Caught up, called out
Come take a look at me now
Its like I'm falling
Its like I'm falling in love

Love, Love
Deeper and deeper
It was love that made me a believer
In more than a name, a faith, a creed
Falling in love with Jesus brought the change in me

Its gotta be
More like falling in love
Than something to believe in
More like losing my heart
Than giving my allegiance
Caught up, called out
Come take a look at me now
Its like I'm falling, Ohhhh
Its like I'm falling

Its gotta be
More like falling in love
Than something to believe in
More like losing my heart
Than giving my allegiance
Caught up, called out
Come take a look at me now
Its like I'm falling, Ohhhh
Its like I'm falling
In love
I'm falling in love